<3> The Acknowledgement

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To truly come to terms with reality, sometimes its beneficial to do the exact opposite and try to view your life and decisions from an outside perspective.

To look at things, decisions, reality; objectively, without the emotional component- you can gain clarity.

For me, the sky is my greatest ally.

All of the chatter in my brain stops, the dull vibrations of anxiety and I'm left with peace. In this state, I'm able to focus on what really and truly matters to me.

During these moments, immersed in the beauty of the sky, wearing my baby, walking my dog- they're the moments I found absolute clarity.

No more "Am I doing the right thing? What if this all ends terribly? What next?" - Just calm, knowing that everything will work out exactly as it's meant to, whether I like the ending or not. It's about the adventure and the journey.

"Life happens when you're not paying attention."

"Happiness can be found in the darkest of places."

"Help will always be given to those who ask for it."

Sometimes the things we hear don't resonate until they're relevant to us. Some cheezy quote you heard once upon a time, can creep up on you and stick.

I want to live while I'm alive. I want to enjoy life, I want to love deeply, be present in the moment, live with curiosity and adventure; I want to feel free.

-I took this photo and immediately felt at ease and still do when I see it. It was a perfect day, a wonderful walk and such a gorgeous sky moment.-

Once I started listening, and I mean really diving deep into my psyche, it was abundantly clear:

Acknowledge.

Truly acknowledge every feeling, fear, thought and emotion. For myself and others, allow the grief, excitement and curiosity.

Once I came to terms with acknowledging myself, my husband, my Mom, our family and friends, it all fell into place. Everyone was allowed to share their thoughts, fears, doubts and excitement; because it no longer belonged to *me*. I was then able to have the conversation with everyone.

"We're leaving."

It was hard. So, so, so hard.

I knew it would break my Mom; I'm her only baby and I'd just had a baby.

But I also knew she'd understand.

Because she's have done the same for me.

So I looked to the sky. I allowed everyone to have their feelings, I acknowledged them and so it was.

We shared our plan (or lack thereof) and took the biggest leap of faith.

Leaving home wasn't easy, but knowing that home is wherever we make it, helps immensely.

And so it is.